Big Sigh

It's officially the end of the fall term! I spent the last week studying for exams, and I don't think I did very well at all. I couldn't seem to collect my thoughts and absorb the information. I think I will pass all my classes, I just won't have high marks in several of them. However, I got an A in College Algebra. That was one of the classes I was most dreading. I will have to rain a bit on my parade because I didn't take the final exam and the professor changed the grading system. Technically, I should have gotten a B, but I'm glad the system got changed. He made the final optional. If we were happy with our grade before the final, then we didn't have to take it. He also only took the three highest grades out of four tests to average the points.

I am excited for next semester. I'm taking a huge leap by adding more classes than in previous semesters. I will be taking six classes. Usually I only take four. My classes will be more focused on my intended degrees, well, except for Speech, but I just needed to get that out of the way and done. I am hoping to take summer courses also so I can be done with all my generals. I just hope they offer what I need. I still have to take my blasted wellness class.....argh!!!!

I've got a couple of weeks until classes start again. Hopefully I can relax and rest up. I may be picking up shifts at the nursing home in Pierre since Manorcare is overly staffed and a little low on census. We'll have to wait and see how everything works out!

Bon soir!

December

It's the beginning of December-which marks the beginning of a very busy month!

Last weekend was when all my siblings got together to visit and have a family dinner. It's very rare that every one of us are able to get together, so it was very nice. I made a turkey for the first time ever! I thought I would totally ruin it, but other than the fact that Karla didn't see the giblets inside and they got cooked with the turkey, it turned out okay.

Next week is finals. I'm a little leery about a few of them. Luckily, my college algebra final is optional. I currently have a B in it, and I'm fine with that! I just hope I pass all my classes. They aren't very fun this semester, and I do not want to retake any of them! I'm excited for next semester classes because they seem all very interesting.

The weekend after finals, I will be watching Janel's kids overnight while they go to Deadwood for Mike's company Christmas party. It will be interesting! Hopefully, they will be on their best behaviors!

I'm not sure what I'll be doing for Christmas this year. I know I work Christmas Day, but I am off Christmas Eve. My cousin who lives not too far from me has invited me down, but I don't know what their plans are either.

Soon will be New Years. I never do anything on New Years, so I'm not sure if I will work, go out, leave town, or what I will do. Whatever it is, I hope to have fun!

Fast Forward

Wow! I didn't realize how long it has been since I posted my last blog!

After meeting with my advisor for school, I really think I'm doing the right thing. I was a little worried for a while because I wasn't sure what I wanted to be, and I didn't want to be in school until I was 35! I'm excited again for school. Next semester will be the first time I take more than four classes. I'm taking five, and I will take a few over the summer as well.

I am also happy to report that I survived the anniversary of my mom's death without shedding a tear. I still remembered her, but it wasn't as heart breaking as years past. Maybe "time heals all wounds" isn't some corny line made up by a person who didn't know what else to tell their friend?

There isn't much to report. All I do is work, eat, sleep, and go to school. It's a little tiring, but I don't have many options.

This next weekend, our family is getting together, and I'm cooking a turkey! It might be scary. Details to follow....

And the World Still Spins Madly On....

I've been very melancholy lately. I'm not sure if it's the Earth tilting and changing pressures and seasons in the air; if it's because it's almost the anniversary of my mother's death; or, if it's because I'm worried about my future plans.

I'm worried about my future because I'm so old to be going to school, and I worry that life will pass by while I'm trying to educate and better myself. All I do is work and go to school. I don't have many friends nearby and I'm not volunteering like I used to-all ways that I stayed in touch with the "real world."

Today, one of my old coworker's nephews was killed in a hunting accident. He was 14 years old. All I could think of was my oldest nephew Austin who absolutely loves hunting. My friend, Tammy was close to him and is having a hard time, as is the rest of his family. It brings up memories and feelings from years past. I hope Tammy's family can move on and find peace.

It's almost 4 a.m. and I'm still awake! I've been sleeping a lot lately and I think it's because I've been so melancholy. The other night I had a melt down and did not sleep well at all. I think I'm feeling too sorry for myself. I just wish I could be the person I used to be. I was looking at pictures of myself as a young girl and I'm always smiling, enjoying life, being naive. I wish I was that happy again and enjoy life's little wonders. I sometimes wonder if I will ever learn to be happy again and not fake it. Just when I think I'm making headway in life, life throws me curveballs and I'm having meltdowns again. GRRRRRR!

And the Crowd Goes Wild!!!!!

So, one of my two fans recently complained because I'm a boring blogger and don't blog enough. Sorry I'm a boring person. I admit to it! But I will try to keep you better informed....

I think idiots follow me. Tonight, every single aide I worked with, was an idiot. It's irritating to me when people don't think of the full spectrum of their job and how their incompetence and laziness effects everyone. I also hate the people who think they know everything, and us humble people always have to clean up after them because they are so dumb. ARRRGGHHH!!!!

But on a positive note, USD finally released my hold so I could finish my registration for classes. I tried to get a response from them for over a month. Finally, I sent a kind of mean letter with information they received that they should have released me from the hold a month ago. After receiving the letter, they miraculously released my hold. I love being mean and firm!

Next up is trying to decide what to be when I grow up. Any suggestions from the crowd is appreciated.

Ten Years.....How Much Do People Change?

In a couple weeks, my class is having their ten year class reunion. I have mixed emotions about this. I want to go, but yet I don't.

I don't want to go because I really don't remember much about school, and the people who are all going to be their weren't necessarily people I've ever considered friends. I also think a lot will be talking about dumb stuff from high school. My old classmates also perceived me as being a certain type of person. Will they see that they were wrong all these years? Will they think I'm the same "quiet" person I was ten years ago? Will they really care if I attend? Will they try to understand the person I have become and decisions I have made in my life? Will anyone even care?

I want to attend the reunion because I want to reconnect with classmates and see where life's road has led them. I want to see what everyone is doing.

I don't know what to do. However, the decision may be made by whether or not I can find someone to work the weekend for me.

If My Life Were a Book......

If my life were a biography book.....it would be so boring people would use it as coasters and door stops.

If my life were a children's book.....I would be the goofy looking kid with huge glasses and wild hair that everyone picks on.

If my life were a diet and health book.....people would die laughing.

If my life were a history book.....historians would be scratching their head wondering why my life could make history.

If my life were a mystery and crime book.....I would either be the victim or the crazy person who helps the main character solve the mystery.

If my life were a religion book.....I would be showcased as the person NOT to imitate.

If my life were a self-help book.....I would spout off useless information to other crazy quacks.

If my life were a romance book.....I should have married my prince a long time ago and be living happily ever after.

If my life were a science fiction book.....I would be the half troll-half leprechaun that lives under the bridge.

Unfortunately, my life will never be a bestseller. I can handle that. I don't mind not having drama. I don't like drama and Lord knows I've dealt with enough drama in my lifetime. Maybe though, I'll make the story of my life be more adventurous and carefree.