Swing Life Away

I feel as if a burden has been lifted from my shoulders. I am starting my new job in just a few days. Even though I'm not sure if I will really like it or if I can financially afford another cut in pay, I'm just so glad to be away from the nursing home. There is no one single major cause for making me hate my job. There are just so many little things. I made some great friends at the nursing home and I hope I can still keep in contact with all of them.

It's the day before Easter and I've never been so glad I don't have children! I spent my morning arguing with kids about cleaning the house. They think they are so over worked. They have no idea! When I was their age, we spent every Saturday cleaning the entire house! Maybe that's why I hate cleaning house now. It's burn out from when we were kids.

Hope everyone(all 2 readers) have a Happy Easter!

I Want It All!!!!

So, I watched High School Musical, Three today, and now it's on again because Nick insisted. I think everyone should live like their life is a musical. People should sing and dance on a whim and not look at people funny. If you see someone break out in song and dance, you should join in-not try to commit them to a mental institute! It's too bad life isn't like a musical or a movie. Usually they have happy endings that come within an hour. I believe that everyone reaches their happy ending, but for some, it takes years. Others seem to walk in the light and get it all. While I'm always the one that all the weird, freaky, and bad things happen to, I still hope I have a happy ending!

The Time of My Life.

I'm currently listening to David Cook's "Time of My Life." I am conflicted in life. There is so much I want to do and experience, but I don't know where to start or how to fund it! I'm almost 100% sure I'm moving either in January when my lease is up or after Spring '10 semester. I'm not ready to give up on all the college courses on a regular campus, so even though I'll be taking a break from Northern for a few years, I hope to be back to continue my education. I've decided that I can do what I want, I don't have to pick one career and that's all I'm going to do in life. I just want to start somewhere that I can have a higher paid job sooner so that I don't feel so poor in life. Now all I want to do is tap my heels together and it be later on so that I don't have to worry about breaking a lease. I love going on these adventures in life. Where I stop, nobody knows-not even me!

Maybe this all means something.

The title of this blog entry is a phrase in a song. I don't know if it applies to my life, but I just like that phrase. Maybe this all means something....maybe I was "meant" to take time off before going back to school; maybe I was "meant" to work where I am with my co-workers and meeting these people and learning from them and forming new bonds; maybe I wasn't "meant" to be idle and stay just in one place. I'm fulfilling my destiny, but I don't know what my destiny is! I feel like a gypsy because I want to go everywhere, do everything, and enjoy life!

I'm thinking of moving-but not until next year after my lease expires-to go to a different school in a different location with different people and different job options. I'm kind of excited and want the year to pass by quickly! I don't know if what I want to go to school for is the best option for me, but I need to try. Even if it ends in failure, at least I gave it my all-and that's all that really matters. I don't want to live my life like I have for the past five years--waiting for something good to come along. I didn't realize at the time that's what I was doing, now I want to be proactive and get out of my slump!

I have so many things I want to do in life! I used to think I was getting too old to do what I wanted, but really, I have years to accomplish my goals. I don't have to have them all accomplished before I'm 30, 35, or even 50! Life's good....it's now time for me to bask in the sunlight of life!