Flying Home

Today is Mother's Day-the one day set aside every year to honor and thank mom's everywhere for being a mom. Some people look at it as just another day. Some people don't stop to think of their moms. Some people may not even talk to their mom anymore for personal reasons. All I have to say is that every single person should be thankful for their mom and show their appreciation all the time-not just on mother's day. Who knows when you will speak to your mother again and if you will have the opportunity ever to thank your mom for everything she has sacrificed in her own life, just to give you the best of life possible.

I will be the first to admit that I never thanked my mom for everything she has ever done for me. I like to believe that she knows how much I cherished her, even when I was mean to her or acted like I didn't care. Anyone who knew my mom knows what kind of soul she had and how she would have given everything to help anyone out. As the song goes, if you knew the way she felt inside, she's flying where she should. I never believed we'd ever live to see an angel being born and flying home.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers, and children-make sure you show your mom how much you appreciate her while you still can.

I Believe

I'm currently listening to "I Believe" by Yolanda Adams. I love this song because it gives hope and encouragement and makes you want to follow your dreams, hopes, and aspirations. It seems as if nothing is out of reach as long as you believe you can reach it.

Every morning when I wake up, it is one day closer to what I will be, where I will be, and what my future holds for me. It's exciting thinking about the boundless possibilities life will bring me. I have so much in my mind that I want to do and accomplish. Sometimes I wonder if I will have enough time in life.

As I grow older, age doesn't bother me. I used to think 30 was old, then 40 was old, now I'm not sure what old really is. I think "being old" is only how you feel, not an actual age. I no longer set goals of this is what I want to do before 30, 40, etc. Life is short, but yet is long enough to accomplish dreams and goals. I no longer need to be a certain person by the time I'm 30. 30 is just a number. It's easy for me to say now, but when I'm actually 30, that may be a different view.

Dream Big

Good news!!! My computer is fixed and I didn't lose much when they had to rebuild my computer! Yay!!!! You never really appreciate your computer until it doesn't work anymore.

In not so other good news.....I hate my job. I sometimes don't really stop to think what my work all entails. I guess I never have had a job that requires you to sit in one spot your entire shift. My new job requires me to sit in a gray cubicle. I can see the top of a window over the cubicles in the row behind me. I answer phone calls mostly of people complaining about their hotel stays or their bills. I really don't care about the people. I feel bad about them, but really, I can't help people. I just take down their concerns, thank them for calling, and then wait for the next call to come in. I can definitely say sitting in a chair for extended periods of time is not my cup of tea. I like to move around, help people, have a change in job duties occasionally. It's kind of a depressing job, and it doesn't pay the greatest either. So, I've been looking at a few other options. Mostly ones that are exciting and I hope work out.

Please cross your fingers for me in hopes that I find what I'm looking for!!!

Swing Life Away

I feel as if a burden has been lifted from my shoulders. I am starting my new job in just a few days. Even though I'm not sure if I will really like it or if I can financially afford another cut in pay, I'm just so glad to be away from the nursing home. There is no one single major cause for making me hate my job. There are just so many little things. I made some great friends at the nursing home and I hope I can still keep in contact with all of them.

It's the day before Easter and I've never been so glad I don't have children! I spent my morning arguing with kids about cleaning the house. They think they are so over worked. They have no idea! When I was their age, we spent every Saturday cleaning the entire house! Maybe that's why I hate cleaning house now. It's burn out from when we were kids.

Hope everyone(all 2 readers) have a Happy Easter!

I Want It All!!!!

So, I watched High School Musical, Three today, and now it's on again because Nick insisted. I think everyone should live like their life is a musical. People should sing and dance on a whim and not look at people funny. If you see someone break out in song and dance, you should join in-not try to commit them to a mental institute! It's too bad life isn't like a musical or a movie. Usually they have happy endings that come within an hour. I believe that everyone reaches their happy ending, but for some, it takes years. Others seem to walk in the light and get it all. While I'm always the one that all the weird, freaky, and bad things happen to, I still hope I have a happy ending!

The Time of My Life.

I'm currently listening to David Cook's "Time of My Life." I am conflicted in life. There is so much I want to do and experience, but I don't know where to start or how to fund it! I'm almost 100% sure I'm moving either in January when my lease is up or after Spring '10 semester. I'm not ready to give up on all the college courses on a regular campus, so even though I'll be taking a break from Northern for a few years, I hope to be back to continue my education. I've decided that I can do what I want, I don't have to pick one career and that's all I'm going to do in life. I just want to start somewhere that I can have a higher paid job sooner so that I don't feel so poor in life. Now all I want to do is tap my heels together and it be later on so that I don't have to worry about breaking a lease. I love going on these adventures in life. Where I stop, nobody knows-not even me!

Maybe this all means something.

The title of this blog entry is a phrase in a song. I don't know if it applies to my life, but I just like that phrase. Maybe this all means something....maybe I was "meant" to take time off before going back to school; maybe I was "meant" to work where I am with my co-workers and meeting these people and learning from them and forming new bonds; maybe I wasn't "meant" to be idle and stay just in one place. I'm fulfilling my destiny, but I don't know what my destiny is! I feel like a gypsy because I want to go everywhere, do everything, and enjoy life!

I'm thinking of moving-but not until next year after my lease expires-to go to a different school in a different location with different people and different job options. I'm kind of excited and want the year to pass by quickly! I don't know if what I want to go to school for is the best option for me, but I need to try. Even if it ends in failure, at least I gave it my all-and that's all that really matters. I don't want to live my life like I have for the past five years--waiting for something good to come along. I didn't realize at the time that's what I was doing, now I want to be proactive and get out of my slump!

I have so many things I want to do in life! I used to think I was getting too old to do what I wanted, but really, I have years to accomplish my goals. I don't have to have them all accomplished before I'm 30, 35, or even 50! Life's good....it's now time for me to bask in the sunlight of life!